Katie-curlyq-mello

today was the first day of band camp. i wasn't too excited about it, but i got ready to go. as i was getting in the car my finger got pinched between the cup holder thingy and my big jug of water and it gave me a big cut on my finger that started gushing blood. so i ran in the house, washed it off and got a band aid and went to the car. on my way there gabby texted me and told me that they are starting! i was freaking out! i didn't know what to do! there was no way i was gonna walk in late while everyone else had already started.... if your late you do push ups, i cant do good push up at all! so of course i start freaking out and getting anxi

well summer is almost over, i havent really seen or talked to ANY of my friends. i think this is the first summer that ive just layed around and been by myself. everyday i think of my one friend tho, i havent talked to her in forever...i am honestly kinda scared to call her. im not sure why...but i really really wanna talk to her and hangout with her... anyway...one of my new favorite things is horseback riding. i absolutely love it, i love being around the horses, washing them, brushing them, putting all the tack on them, and just staring at their big eyes is heaven for me! oh course i am also completely in love with the riding its self. a

i have came to a realization that it isnt all my fault. a relationship goes both ways. so does a phone, so if me and her dont hangout this summer or talk it isnt just my fault. before i was blaming myself, but im not the only one to blame. i realize that she isnt trying any harder then i am to hangout or talk. i am NOT the only one to be blamed damn it!!!!